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Well today was the 2nd Zumba class. I think I need an award for going. PMS, cramps, IBS, rainstorms, sleet and snow tried to keep me away. I do go. Yay me. Different instructor this time, don't care for her as much. I think if I were more advance she would be ok, but as a newbie, I prefer Gabby. came home to my slimmed down version of lasagna soup in the crock pot. really wishing this house business was over and done, as strange as it seems, think I need my freedom to explore my new lifestyle a little in private and there is no such thing here and now. hard to keep from going back to the old food as a weapon and emotional control tool that the 17 yr old me did while living with the same woman I did then. pushing through and keeping going. not doing great in hydration today and really didn't have a good food day either. not bad, but not good. need better stocked fridge and pantry for better choices, but it isn't my fridge or pantry and people get upset here if things get to full of stuff so I try not to buy to much ahead more then a day or two. mental changes are the most important right now. keeping it up and trying to keep my motivation. i have always been a back of the room kind of gal, always more comfortable with me looking at others and not the other way around but this time, I was in a room full of more stubborn then me back of the room gals. I ended up first row at Zumba. started out feeling a little uncomfortable, then the perfect song came on and I embrassed it. Thanks Katy Perry for giving me this song today to get through my plastic bag moment.
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