shopping

went out of town last night to shop for shoes and while there took advantage to go into EarthFare grocery shopping. hard to find any organics here in this small town. was a little surprised which makes me naive that there was still tons of junk food in there. they market it under organic but yes it is organic junk food. teaching my girls to be label readers and understand what the label says is very important to me and this was a great lesson. Well as I feared hike postponed do to weather but on happy note, with it being so, my husband might get to come tomorrow. I pray so, miss his company and would love to spend some time with him.

Rained out

Looks like tomorrows trip to Grotto falls is going to be rained out. I am really upset. going to try and replan for Sunday. Can't let this get me down or set me back. Wonder what I can do tomorrow instead for a work out. guess I will have to give that one some thought. To show I still have my since of humour here is the song for it.

Keeping on

another day and I am keeping on. had some big motivation last night thanks to another blogger I watched a new film on line Hungry for Change It was very good and one of those things that tells you what you really already know but in a way that makes you really see it. Highly recommend watching it to anyone who wants to be healthier. It is free online till March 31st.

For me

I did 7 miles today on bike, it was hard but I did it and every mile and every minute was for me. not for anyone else. This is all up to me, whether I succeed or fail comes down to me, no one to blame or praise. hard work , faith, and deidication all in me.
so today, though I am not a huge Mariah Carey fan, this is the song for the day.

No longer the bad guy.

AS if sent by an angel, yesterday at Zumba class they had a guest speaker. A nutritionist came in and presented facts on what an actual serving size was of common foods. My daughters were amazed. so I did know what I was talking about after all. It really helped their attitude. Called today to get Dr. appointment BP is getting very low, need some med adjustments.

new trip planned

well today was one of those days where people try to step on your dreams. A family member is trying to discourage me from trying Abram Falls. it is hard to just ignore so I have decided to add another hike this weekend to prepare. so in that Saturday will be

Grotto Falls

This hike is more difficult then the one I did this past Sunday, but not as difficult as Abram Falls. I think it will be a good way to judge.
I have to believe in myself because it is obvious there are those who don't believe in me.

who needs numbers on a scale.

Well another morning of motivation. My fasting blood sugar was 89. this is amazing to me. I have set my next goal and hope to accomplish it  during spring break.

Abrams Falls

bad example

This morning started off with a bang. My 10 y/r old wanted to take banana chips to school for a snack. I said no problem, let me get you some and put a serving into a small bag. well she didn't want to wait and did this herself. I saw on the counter a half emptied bag of banana chips and stopped her. I had her read the back and tell me how many servings were in the bag. answer 20. so I told her you have 10 servings there, we need to put some back. by the time we had 1 serving she was crying and said it wasn't enough and not worth it. oh how those words hurt me. I haven't been a good example to my daughters on portion control. from this point forward I will be. I don't want my girls to struggle like I have. going to take all snack foods and when they come from store, pre- portion them. seeing what a true portion is must be one of the biggest steps in this lifestyle. it has to stop the cycle of over eating. here is a link I am going to try and use and help teach them.

http://www.webmd.com/diet/control-portion-size

98 is a beautiful number

I have struggled over the last 7 years not being able to get my diabetes under control. My A1c has been very high. This morning I took my Blood sugar and to my amazement and joy it was 98. The first time in many years I have seen a number within normal range. that is more then enough motivation to keep going. Who needs the scale to move when you have numbers like that.

1st goal accomplished

When we made the decision to  move here I realized I was to unhealthy to really enjoy everything it had to offer. this made me very sad. I set a goal a year ago in April I would be able to hike Laurel Falls trail by this spring. Well drum roll please. here we are in Spring and I did it! This was  giant step for me. Far from a hard hike but reaching this goal shows me I am on the right path and I can and will succeed. I have a long way to go, but sometimes starting the journey is the hardest step.

full vs not hungry

Lesson for the week is to learn how to eat and when to stop eating. the goal is to eat till not hungry and not eat to full. I need to learn and understand that the feeling of full is not satisfaction, but the bodies way of saying you have over done it. there is a reason being full is uncomfortable and slows you down. My daughter is also having to learn this lesson. I didnt' realize I needed to till I had a conversation with her at the table about it. so for this week. that is the lesson. to quote Mary Poppins... " enough is as good as a feast"

and the beat goes on.

taking my songs from here and some more to make my play list for my walking and working out. If anyone has a good song to add feel free to leave a comment. always looking for inspiration. this in my new fav and number one and the mix.

Holding on

not much I can do but feel like I am just holding on, most people here on not happy about my new lifestyle. not sure if they think it will fade in time or what. I may have to do this by myself, but that is fine. thinking of checking out the local Gym Monday and see what it is like, I would like a workout buddy, but it may end up just me and my MP3. If I do it alone, at least I can't blame anyone else for my success or failure. Win or lose it is all me.

No more Diets

I am trying to explain to people my parents included this is not a diet. this is a lifestyle, the changes I am making are for the rest of my life. I do not want anymore chemical ridden manufactured foods. I want to eat things I can pronounce and that come from nature not a lab. I do not plan to deny myself treats, but those will be homemade and real ingrediants also. given the choices I choose real.

for better or worse

well boys and girls we have reached the lovely point of a lifestyle makeover where metabolism is going so fast you feel like you could eat an elephant and if the elephant knows what is good for it , it will stay out of site, plan to eat several small meals during the day with all lean protiens and veggies to f ight the urges to "fill up".

what a great week.

spent the week with a f riend and had a great week. walked 5 to 6 miles a day and I feel great. back in TN and keeping up the walking. I walked today and plan to do so every morning after I drop off the kids. feeling stronger and trying not to let others get me down.